I couldn't find the words to describe this love anymore.
It seems like its all a night's dream
Where every wonderful and horrible things happen,
even nonsensical events happen in this dream/nightmare.
I wish that you, the one beside me, would be there for me always.
In terms of helping me out, being there for me, sharing and communicating together as one.
Being loyal and faithful, truthful to your words and not breaking any promises.
But things between us don't seem to be like that anymore.
I could only remember the time we started dating, our first date.
14th February 2009
Do you even remember anything now?
Things seem to be clearer to me now,
I understand the way your treating me.
What did i do wrong to deserve this kind of love from you?
All I do is just blame myself for not being perfect for you,
Perfect for your eyes, perfect for your heart, perfect for your mind.
That's why you have the nerves to go for others.
Please don't drag me on this scheme of yours if it's untrue.
Because I dont want you to hurt me no more.
I want to know the truth coming out from your mouth.
If I have to leave loving you, I'll leave because I know that I can't satisfy you.
But if you want me, please then... I'M ASKING YOU,
Just be faithful to me.
Every night I pray hard for us to last a happy life together,
Each time I ask for God's blessing and protection to be upon us.
And that my family would accept who we are, as it is.
I've been giving you full heartedly,
My everything; which I don't think you fully understand what I meant by Everything.
It's too personal that I'm not gonna type it in here.
But I hope that things will be the same like you said that day.
