Last Night

I pray to God to keep you forever
Sometimes I get the feeling that we were meant for each other
But hate and envy will kill us all
How could we go on if we are still stuck here
I did not plan to watch the person I love or care about get hurt because of all my downfalls and mistakes
Listen here, life isnt just about me.
When I'm under pressure, I run away.
And you would think for us both, its over
Or maybe that's just me
Just like the days and nights where I would just disappear
And get u crazed up. Like a lost man.

Sometimes I couldnt reach to you because of the obstacles that I'm going thru
But somehow I feel your presence is always by my side
Countless times you would try to get closer to my heart and comfort me
And I thank you for giving me that little hope of love to hold on
I used to remember lying beside you, counting the infinite stars in the sky...
Especially after tears has fallen and rolled down my cheeks.

You used to tell me to stop crying because I'll look ugly when I cry
But I know, when I cry, you too cry inside.
Your being strong for me, to show me the courage.
I don't know where else can I find a guy like you.
Trust me.

Obviously

God Given

God gave us life,
He gave us everything we could possibly have.
But why can't someone with both legs and arms do something?
But ask and beg, sometimes command??
Are we that spoiled that we're born with a Silver spoon???

And yet, i get hit back on my face.
"WHY DID GOD GAVE ME TO YOU"
should i take this statement into consider?
should i tell you that everything has a purpose?
Don't come telling me this when I'm right infront of you.
You wanna put that statement into my mind, please do it in your own space.
Not when Im around.

Because it hurts.
It hurts knowing that your complaining that I'm a gum placed into your hands,
and cant be scraped off.
To you, I seem to be unappreciative to the works you've done for me.
But have you actually took the time to look back and say:
"WOW, SHE REALLY SPEND SO MUCH DOING THIS FOR ME"
"WOW, SHE REALLY SACRIFICE FOR ME"
"WOW, SHE REALLY CARED"
"WOW, SHE GAVE THE MOST FOR ME AND TOOK THE LEAST"
"WOW, JUST BECAUSE OF ME, SHE DID IT"

have you???
Sometimes i just wanna shout back at you when you say those kinds of things.
Everytime i just shut up.... shut my mouth from saying anything that hurts you... and keeps it inside.
But u dont know how dangerous it could be when i burst.
You deserve to know, you felt it before.
Please dont make the same mistakes.
I dont wanna do the same old shit again.

Just keep moving forward~