The End Result

See, as I mention earlier.
The plans I plan for you,
It's just a failure.

You don't even wanna celebrate your birthday with me.
I feel so disappointed when u just blew the candles and not cut the cake.
and your first impression of the cake was, Why the cake so big one?
Can't you be happy about it?

But then you could have fun and celebrate with others,
how unfair is this?
Don't just tell me you went out with your colleagues,
But there were others..
And do u even know why the reason the celebrated with you?
Because you had cancelled my plans,
That they planned something else for you.
Within one attempt, they could celebrate with you,
But for me it has been many attempts...

And it it wasn't for my invitation,
They wouldn't even know today's your birthday,
Unless they view your facebook profile or wtv,
That they mention it's your birthday!

I just feel like,
The girl I'm trying to be for you,
Is not the kindda person I like to be.
I just wanna be the kindda girl for you.
Whom you see in me,
Deep inside me,
That I'm really someone special,
That you really treasure, and not let go.

Why don't I get the chance?
Why do I always feel left-out?
Why do I feel like I'm just being a fool for you?
Why do I feel your embarrass about me?

Am I not good enough?
I feel so insecure.
And yet, I try not to compare us with others.