Loving you

Loving you means something important to me.
This means how much I love you.
Although it has been rough for us lately,
it always turn out to be a happy story in the end.
Yesterday night, you enlighten me up by surprising me with a gift that was laid on the dining table with a lighted candle and the hand-made tissue rose.
It was an unexpected moment for me,
and I just wanna tell you 'Thank You' for going through all this trouble just to make me happy.
And I really appreciate what your doing.
Just pray to God that we'll forever be happy together and that he'll guide us and protect us each and everyday.
I love you so much Pin Hon.
I don't know whether you know what I mean by 'much'.
But it's greater than any love any mother has given, and friend or pass has given.
Greater than infinity and supernova.
It's just alot!
Can't wait for you to come home.
I love you.
Hugs and kisses

trust & forgiving

It's all about trust and forgiving,
What's there to move on when you don't realize?
But blindly living each day like a fool.
The world is full of bogus when you think back.

No one said its gonna be easy,
You have to stand on your on ground,
And be the one that people look up upon.
Not to say that you have to be of most expected,
But upon your own.

continues~

In Whatever Time We Have

I don't give a damn for the thunders of fathers
Come hell or high water whatever they do
I could not live in a world without you

In whatever time we have
For as long as we are living
We can face whatever comes
If we face it now as one
I could make on my own
Let me know that I don't have to
No one really wants to be alone
In whatever we time have

If at times we are afraid
With so little to believe in
It's alright to feel afraid
I will hold you in the dark
All we know for sure is this
Though the world could end tomorrow
You and I will be together
In whatever time we have

We know life can be a battlefield
We can face whatever comes
If we face it now as one

But we won't run and we won't yield
You'll be my fortress and I will be your shield
No one really wants to be alone
In whatever time we have

There are time I've been afraid
In a world that's so uncertain
Then I feel your hand in mine
And there's courage in my heart

We could live a hundred years
Or the world could end tomorrow
But we know we'll be together in whatever time

From this day forward nights don't seem so black
From this day forward we will never look back
In whatever time we have
We will make the most of time
And at least we'll be together in whatever time
We have

STUCK

Not quite a woman,
Not quite a child either,
But I'm stuck somewhere in between.

We look the same, like you or me.
But looks aren't always what they seemed.

Just trapped within,
somewhere deep inside.
Our memories repressed,
from when I was a child.
Awakened this thoughts,
someone you'll find,
a child inside who takes over my mind.

Mother's words becomes a part of us,
it last forever in our minds.
So you'll never know,
what's might said it all.
It could happen anytime.

I'M trap within, deep inside~

My thoughts of You

When I first laid eyes on him,
I thought this was my chance.
He flashed me up a blinding smile,
and reached out his hands to me.

You know the way we met,
it wont leave my mind.
Dancing across the room every night,
was the happiest thing. To me.

It's like an arrow right through my heart,
It's like a thorn into my soul when his not beside me.

You know when you reach for something,
and then its pulled away.
Or when you know you long for something
but you can't have it today.

Ive heard love find every heart,
and I guess love does come t
Cause the guy who stole my heart,
and inspired me to write this,
Is you. Chin Pin Hon.

And I'm lucky that it's ME.

This song is dedicated to my love one, Chin Pin Hon. Don't want an Ending

Good to have Nice people around

Yes we do know that my beloved had to attend Salsa festival for 4 days,
But I had people inviting me over their house to chill...
On Thursday and Friday I was over my mom's place.
And yesterday I was over our neighbour's house.
OOOO.... NICE TIME.
They bought this big bottle of Sake and 5 of us totally finished it.
Oh not to mention, Desmon and Vijin were puffing of CIGARS.
For the first time, in front of me, I see people puffing on those.
Well, they also had thier own bongs for Shisha...
But probable we'll have that next time because Desmond hasnt set the Charcoal..
So yeah... It was fun...
And Vijin just came back from Saudi, Welcome back!!
haha...
Just realise somehow I came back light headed!

Not drunk yea

Gossip Gurls

Walao!
I know I'm much younger and much more capable.
Not to mention I don't have wrinkles and sags or maybe mustache growing out.
I just don't like people going around telling other people about other people's life;
gossips and lies!

Let me ask you something,
Is it wrong to know someone new?
A new friend?

Well, let me tell you something Gossipers.
The friend I just met,
Is a very nice fellow.
We could relate to each other in a way.
Why?
Same age, or should I say GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE?
You wanna POISON my LIFE, go ahead.
Because that's what you'll do during your free time right?

Scenario 1: (over the phone)
Person 1: Hey, You know I heard from someone that your daughter is stalking X.
Person 2: Is it?
Person 1: Yes la, you think I'm lying to you r? She's stalking X on facebook, msn, etc.
Person 2: Ai ya, nevermind la. New friends ma, they just met ma.
Person 1: Heloo!! You know your daughter, she's good with guys. Don't you think she's stalking X, and flirting with him?
Person 2: Hmmm....
Person 1: Furthermore, X is a romeo and Juliet type. Have you seen X's blog?
Person 2: No, what's it about?
Person 1: X totally blog all about X personal life.
Person 2: owh. K la..

Scenario 2: (at home)
Cousin 1: hey, you go chat with X?
Me: yeah, sometimes... not so often la.. why r?
Person 2 : WHAT? You chat with X r? Better becareful r..
Me: why?
Person 2: cause I heard from person 1 that X is a "romeo juliet" type.
Me: so??? how come r?
Person 2 : have you read X BLOG?
Me: yeah, and i kindda think it relates to me in a way.. like i write poems, or wtv... right Cousin 1? have u read my blog?
Cousin 1: yeah, sometimes...
Person 2: Anyways, wtv it is... just becareful k?
Me: (frustrated and angry) So what? Becareful of what? Nothing also... Just friends only la...

Haihz... okay, these are the scenes of what actually happen... It might not be exactly like what i've mention... but roughly it's something like that!
Just hate Gossipers!!!

A New Leaf

I just wanna change myself,
I wanna be someone I always wanted to be.
I used to have a goal,
That I promised someone.

When I turn 21, I would start dressing up like a real lady.
Wearing dresses, and have my own make up sets.
Getting all the attention,
But only longing for ONE.

I don't know how I'm gonna strive for that PERFECT 21 years old Daisy,
Feel like starting it now,
But every time I try,
It just doesn't work.
Maybe because I don't shop much,
Maybe I'm not born to be like tat,
But why do I have a longing to do so?

[HD] After School - Because of You MV / 애프터스쿨 - 너 때문에 뮤직비디오

frustrated

Good morning World, another good day to live.
I'm trying my best to blog, upload pictures, and do some creative stuff
but it's hard... there's always an error or it takes too long, or i don't know..
I'm getting frustrated,
and I feel like giving up on blogging.

No matter what,
I'll continue to try till I get it done,
and by the mean time,
Do comment what I should blog about.
Thanks

Relationships are tricky!

I just realized that relationships are tricky.
The strategies we think SHOULD work, don't work!
The strategies we think WON'T work, do work...

Let me tell you what I learn during being in a relationship:
When we chase girlfriends, boyfriends or even dogs, they run away!
Why?
Because we are chasing them!

When we try to trap people in relationships,
they can't wait to escape!
But when we LET GO of them, give them freedom,
they usually come back.
This is 80% true from my experience,
and some of you readers have experienced that 20% of them run away for good when u give them too much freedom.

Even trying to change people is a bad idea!
Why?
Because it doesn't work.
End result = You get frustrated and they hate you, maybe ignore you!

Singapore Movie (damn funny)

Dear viewers and frens

I'm sorry i tagged you on facebook about my link... but I will try to update every now and then. will upload our pictures too. so keep coming back for more k?

Something to Share

Where were you when I said, I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
And where were you when I needed you the most?
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you
I don't want you to leave me, I need you
Thinking of all the times we shared

I keep thinking that I'm not fine enough for you
That I'm too fat for you
And I keep thinking I'm not wild enough for you
That your embarrass with me
But I don't want and wont waste our time trying to figure out

I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up everything for you
I remember releasing my anger and sadness in the park,
In my diary too
And where were you?
My heart couldn't take no more
I was sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out
I remember when I scream, and hated the stuff you did
Showed that Black face that you hated so much
But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you
More and more each day

No one knew all the pain I went through
Giving up something precious we could have
There was nowhere else to go
Nobody else to turn to

All the love I saved deep in my heart for you
Didn't know, where I would go, where I would be with you
It just keeps telling me so,
That your the one
For the rest of my life, I promise myself

I know we're both scared Bi
But you gotta give me everything
Let me be the one who can take you
From all the things you've seen and heard or experienced
And if you trust in me
I can be there for anything you need

Share with me, please I beg you
Give it all to me, bi
Don't run from me, I'll give you every little piece of me
And not leaving out a tiny thing

I trust you, I love you, I want you, I need you
and I don't care what others say about us.

The End Result

See, as I mention earlier.
The plans I plan for you,
It's just a failure.

You don't even wanna celebrate your birthday with me.
I feel so disappointed when u just blew the candles and not cut the cake.
and your first impression of the cake was, Why the cake so big one?
Can't you be happy about it?

But then you could have fun and celebrate with others,
how unfair is this?
Don't just tell me you went out with your colleagues,
But there were others..
And do u even know why the reason the celebrated with you?
Because you had cancelled my plans,
That they planned something else for you.
Within one attempt, they could celebrate with you,
But for me it has been many attempts...

And it it wasn't for my invitation,
They wouldn't even know today's your birthday,
Unless they view your facebook profile or wtv,
That they mention it's your birthday!

I just feel like,
The girl I'm trying to be for you,
Is not the kindda person I like to be.
I just wanna be the kindda girl for you.
Whom you see in me,
Deep inside me,
That I'm really someone special,
That you really treasure, and not let go.

Why don't I get the chance?
Why do I always feel left-out?
Why do I feel like I'm just being a fool for you?
Why do I feel your embarrass about me?

Am I not good enough?
I feel so insecure.
And yet, I try not to compare us with others.

The Plans

Although I'm not a perfect person,
I try to do my best for you.
It's because I love you so much that I want to make you happy,
For the rest of your life or for the time I'm with you.

It's not easy to organize everything and plan what's next,
But I try to make it happen,
For a special day like these to come.
And it doesn't happen everyday.
Maybe once or twice a year.

Loving you, I just wanna be with you.
Can't you understand that I just wanna celebrate this special day with you?
Is not like we even celebrate any of our anniversary being together.
I know everyday seems special.
But what about the extraordinary kindda special?
That we go out on a date,
Get that spark lighted up.

I'm not trying to say that staying at home means no Love,
I'm trying to say that we should get out from our comfort zone and have fun.
Get that spark lighted up.

*Argh, stupid blog google thingy, it did not save my previous draft!
Forget it la...

BY2 - 愛上你(KTV版)

Not the person you think I am

The title says it all,
Seems like yesterday was just a fairytale,
And today it's like 2020.
Where the world just starts crashing and stops.
Maybe not now, but in me.

The way I see life,
The way I used to remember it,
It's just not the same anymore.
And for you to take it all,
I gave it all.

Gave it all till I was left alone and shattered,
Gave it all till there's no turning back,
Gave it all till there's no tears anymore,
To you it might seem normal,
But to me its something special.

You're just in-human to hurt me like tat,
You know what I feel and get from you?
Freaking Robot!

aHH, i'M JUST CRAPPING....
Like Jabberworkyvere~

heart-broken

You think everything is alright when things are just crashing down,
You don't even take a look back at me,
Everything's just gonna crash sooner or later if you don't change.

Ive been here for you always, and no matter how hard i try
you always don't appreciate me
and what about me when i needed you the most??
do you care?

and now, as things are on the edge of falling deeply into a black hole,
which there will be no return,
both of us are just going our own separate ways
I don't know how this is gonna be..

At times i just feel so mad tat i just wanna walk away
But I just Love you so much tat i Can't do all of those!
Please.. O just please...